I caught myself spiraling…

I caught myself spiraling…

The stars seemed to be aligning and our next endeavor appeared to be taking off quite easily. I could feel myself relax and breath…

The 3 upsetting events happened within moments of one another and I felt myself begin to spiral. 

This wasn’t the news I wanted. This wasn’t how things were supposed to be playing out. As much as I tried there was no positive talk to stop me.

I begin to react- doing more of what I typically do- stress clean and panic while also trying to fix it myself. 

…

Instead I paused. 

I let myself feel annoyed, frustrated and disappointed about the situation << without judgement>>. I didn’t make myself wrong for it. I didn’t punish myself for getting my hopes up. I just sat with it. I sat with discomfort of it all.

And then after several minutes had passed, I soothed myself. 

This wasn’t a set back; this was an opportunity to see things differently. 

This wasn’t failure; it was a chance to learn and grow.

This wasn’t something I had to fix; this was a pause for another perspective.

This wasn’t a downward spiral; it was a change in elevation - a chance to expand.

This wasn’t a spiral…

It was a recalibration.